banefulathame

Starting over yet again.

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 01:29:11 GMT

Ok. Since I have this account anyway, I will keep all of my wiccanings here. Seems appropriate :)

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 13:01:52 GMT

Well, I moved two of my private journal entries from livejournal here. I don't want to write something that is in my heart at the time, and then go back and delete it before M sees it. I have already deleted two, about A, but hopefully I won't have to be afraid of this being seen by M anymore.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 13:00:06 GMT

Well, I did another read, pertaining to the first situation I got myself into, I asked

I got the Ten of Wands , Seventeen, or The Star Card , and the Fourteen, or Temperance Card .

Ten of Wands
Ooh...not a good card, at all. Ten represents the Earth, completion, sometimes too much of a good thing. The Ten of Wands, in particular, means too many burdens, something must be shed or energy will suffer. Time to pause, stop, slow down, reevaluate. Hmm...I could take this one of two ways. Either I need to shed something for myself, or someone else needs to shed something...

Seventeen, or The Star
Revelation, harmony with nature, hope. Yes, I see this card pertaining to this situation. I do have hope, and I suppose once I slow down and give things time, it will work out...or I will see that it may not be worth it. hmmm....

Goddamn it!

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 12:57:06 GMT

Well, if there wasn't a sign to behold, there never was one. I received an email from match.com...and I as I was reading it, I noticed the address; snail mail address for it. Of all the goddamn places in the world...Richardson, TX. I broke down in tears. Why...Why...

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 22:58:09 GMT

Well, I finally got my laptop today...WHEE!!! I absolutely love it. Now, I can talk and do whatever I want and not really worry about who is seeing it. I hooked up my new webcam...it sucks, royally. I got better graphics off of a small $10 pencam than this stupid $50 one. I'm calling Dell to have it sent back. Hmm...I believe my digital camera has a webcam option. I will just use that instead.

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 14:44:01 GMT

Well, I had to start over, because M had access to my livejournal account. Now, I'm going to have to change all of my usernames, etc. I can't even have a place for my thoughts and feelings without him finding it. I hope he doesn't find this one, because if he is looking to not get hurt, then he won't find sunshine and roses here. I need a place to call my own, without interference from him. I don't mind other people reading my journal...just not him. He finds things, and throws them back in my face. It's as if my whole world should revolve around him and only him. Well...it doesn't. And it never will.